What is a relationship an answer to? What is the reason for being in a relationship and sustaining close quarters with another person? Some say that loneliness is hard to bear. I find that true in a person who has not become friends with his/her mind. Though being alone has sometimes been hard for me, being alone has also enabled me to divvy up my time as I see fit.

I am interested in freedom. I am also interested in love and sharing.

I do not think that the two are so separate after all.

For me, the answer seems to be to find another person who has the same CORE interests, such as a spiritual belief (or not), a sense of self and where they are going in life, etc.

If you couple with a person who is interested in being your lap dog and you are like me, you will have no time to decompress between interactions with people at work, home, etc and you will become irritable and sick of your partner and break up with them to a tremendous amount of satisfaction and emptiness in your bed.

I love my partner. Few people make me laugh like he does. Consequently few people make me ache like he does, either. In the truly humble beginnings of our relationship I sensed that this would be a substantial thing and all signs pointed towards LTR. He snubbed me a few times in the beginning. It is my belief that he was getting his bearings and taking his time deciding how our relationship was going to work for him.

Each time he snubbed me I felt furious and confused about where our relationship was going, etc. I figured that because I felt a certain way, he did, too. He is after all a magickal queer, I told myself. How could he not feel exactly what I feel? When the arrogance wore off and I was ready to see what he saw, I called him and we talked about it.

We shared the importance of our core values and shared some painful stories about our individual abuses and things we have overcome in our lives and things we'd need to overcome together in order to have a healthy relationship. We did an astrological compatibility chart to double check our own theories and of course there were areas that highlighted our shortcomings as a couple, some things that I'd already theorized about. We have a fiery relationship when it comes to arguing, but a rare tenderness exists in our exploration of love and the respect we have for each other combined with the strength of our communication and our commitment to honesty that has for me, been unparalleled in any relationship before.

We are both having a lot of "firsts" in our relationship. This you might think would bring stress but so far, so good. Each first has been birthed with love and sensitivity and a caring that I've never seen before. I am excited to see each new step of our relationship.

I feel free in this version of commitment. we have certain understandings about attraction to other people and to what extent we can within the boundaries of our relationship, act on . I find this a happy place to be in. I love my boyfriend. From his ornery behavior down to his placid Buddhist soul.

So cook me some chicken and Jo-Jo's, bitch. Mamma's hongry. NOM NOM.